This is just a simple missionary's blog. Currently, I'm a children's pastor, but am involved in missions at my church. I firmly believe that God is calling me to be a missionary to Eastern Europe to work with orphans. I'm just following His leading. One day soon He'll bring a handsome man into the picture and...well....we'll see what else He brings. Enjoy reading!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Narrow Road Vision

I was listening to Ken Krause (the director of BCOM) talk to my internship class during our commissioning service on Wednesday. He was talking about walking on the narrow road vs. the wide road. The Lord gave me a vision as he spoke. I could totally see and hear what Ken was saying, but I could also see and hear my vision. I saw myself walking along a tiny ledge. It was a sheer drop down more than 1,000 feet. I had to face the mountain and walk using the balls of my feet because the path was so narrow. My elbows and knees were bloody and I was tired. As this was going on, Ken started talking about how lonely the narrow path is. In my vision, I saw myself look around only to see no one there. I felt lonely. I could hear laughter and talking. It was coming from somewhere above me, so I looked up. Above me was the wide road. People were laughing, talking, and having fun. Every little while there was a small gap in the road and a short path from the narrow road to the wide road. It was just ahead of me and I could easily climb up to the wide road and be with other people. The devil told me to climb up there. "There won't be any more pain! You'll have fun!" he told me. The voice of the Lord told me, "Keep going, Chelsea. Don't give up." I continued on the narrow path, even though it was hard.
At one point, the ledge for my feet completely dropped away. The only way to keep going was to hold onto the mountainside using just my hands and move sideways. It was so hard! My muscles grew tired and sore. I wanted to turn back and go to the wide road. I could still hear the laughter. But I kept going. Suddenly, I felt something brush against the tips of my toes and looked down to see nothing there. It happened again a few seconds later. Again, nothing was there when I looked down, just a sheer drop to certain death. A voice entered my thoughts and said, "Let go." I thought that it had to be the enemy. "No!" I told Him. "I refuse to let go!" I kept shuffling painfully along the mountainside. "Let go...trust Me." I continued feeling something brushing against my toes. "Alright..." So I let go.
I dropped only an inch before I landed on something sturdy. If you've ever seen Indiana Jones 3, this is what it felt like. I looked down, but there was nothing there!!!! I felt with my toes to feel the border of this walkway. It was slightly wider than a balance beam. The voice of the Lord said, "Chelsea, I am walking with you, guiding you. I will never leave you, no matter what happens. Don't give up. Trust Me!"
Those who follow the Lord are walking this thin path. Sometimes, we don't know where the path is. We can't see anything ahead of us. But no matter what, God is still there with us, coaching us, guiding us. He will never leave us. All we have to do is trust Him. This road is never easy. It takes blood, sweat, tears, and even our very life to walk this road. But the rewards and promises are more than we can possibly even imagine! The other option is to walk on a wide, fun road. This road is a dead end, leading to death. They have their reward on the earth.

What will you choose?